Sunday, August 29, 2010

Week 8


As a ship finds home in the harbor, I find refuge in the sea. The cerulean waters, forever harmonious with the sun breaking across the horizon, is the most perfect masterpiece any god could have created. The raging waves crashing, returning to tears as they reach the stony shore fills me with an unexplainable solace. A solace filled with sadness, yes, but peace nonetheless.

The north wind softly caresses my body and cleanses my soul as it takes me on that distant dream of myself and my father exploring the seven seas - a silent, distant memory I remember with piercing clarity. The seagulls squawking, trifling with the ships save me before a broken promise engulfs me completely; the out-of-tuned band reminding me of my existence... and my father's inexistence.

It's been two years since the sea took the S. Christina, and my father.

You may be wondering why, despite the crime it has committed, I have in me such ardent admiration for the sea. Too tell you the truth, I'm not sure myself. Perhaps it's because I love my father too much. How could I hate the one thing my father loved? Jealous, I may be, but furious I am most definitely not.

I still come here often, bringing my father's - no, our model ship. I sit here by the shore, staring past the horizon, smelling the salty sea water. The north wind blows and I welcome it wholeheartedly, knowing that somehow, it's my father wiping away the tears that escape my eyes.




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Nautical Dreams by KASH

Sunday, August 22, 2010

Week 7

My beauty? Timeless.

I am the reason for the blonde and blue eyes phenomenon, why everyone would kill to have a vuluptous body like mine. I am perfection. I am the epitome of beauty and grace. A phenomenal woman.

In my world I can have all the clothes and shoes I want to wear, all the cars I can drive. For five decades I have been the plastic paramour of every male doll in this industry: Ken Carson, Blaine - you name them! How can they possibly resist my long lashes and pink lips?

I live in the perfect world.

And I am sick of all this perfection.

I am tired of being ageless. I want to grow wrinkles and have my grandchildren on my lap, have my man hold my hand while we watch the sunset from our porch.

I am tired of this smile plastered on my face. It prohibits me from crying my heartaches out, to be in despair of all the dreadful things happening to me - the things people are unaware of.

I am tired of all the glamor and adoration. A simple and peaceful country life is all I dream of. At times I want to hurt myself with my high-heeled shoes, leave a scar on my cheeks just so everyone will stop adoring me.

I am tired of being perfect. Of being Barbie Millicent Roberts.


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Being Barbie by KASH

Sunday, August 15, 2010

Week 6

I. Day


Welcome to the city.

Here the sky is not turquoise but a thin screen of gray smog. Within the walls of its monochromatic buildings and skyscrapers, people appear to be streaks of black and gray ink. The people in the sidewalk parade to their respective offices while others chase down yellow cabs.

The green Starbucks logo shouts to everyone to get their morning latte or ebony-black espresso. A mischievous white poodle, strangled with his leash, sprays the devil-red fire hydrant by the corner with his blessings.


II. Dusk

From grey pavements to an orange sunset kissed with a bashful pink.

A heavy midnight blue curtain is draped from the heavens, a mild purple caresses the horizon. In the evening the city is not the city. From a rusty black-and-white television set it transforms into Las Vegas. Every rose turns fuchsia, every tower is coated with brilliance.

The silent streets are filled with the cars' headlights and every building participates in the captivating display of lights that enamors the soul. The waters mirror the vibrant hues of the city, scaring away the phantoms of grief.

Everyone celebrates before the morning seeps back in, painting everything back to gray.





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Vibrant Hues: The City by KASH

Sunday, August 8, 2010

Week 5


"Come in. We're Open."

This sign greeted the young man at the entrance. Though still unsure, he decided to go in.

The bank was like any other bank: the glass doors, the bright fluorescent lights, the marble flooring. There were a lot of desks, stacks of papers sitting on each, and a far more lot of people falling in line. It was one of winter's coldest days that all of the heaters were turned on. Accenting the common-looking establishment was a vault of tremendous size occupying the far back, sitting cold and silently watching everyone's movement.

"Good afternoon, sir. How may I help you?" asked a man in a black suit; 'Roger Cruz' was embossed in the man's nameplate.
"Well I, uhm -. I'm not really sure."
"Would you like a tour, sir?"

Roger Cruz who turns out to be the bank's manager, escorted the young man further inside.

"What is this place?" asked the man.
"This is a Memory Bank. Well, when we use the word 'memory' we refer to everything that has happened and will happen to one person."

The man was dumbfounded. Bank, memories - they don't seem to fit. Before he could ask another question, Roger spoke.

"We operate the way ordinary banks do. You deposit, you withdraw, you loan et cetera. Instead of cash though, we only accept memories, sensations, emotions."

Dumbfounded still was the young man.

"You could deposit memories - be it good or bad. When you deposit good memories, you'll be left with only the bad ones; deposit the bad ones and be left with the good ones. We get a lot of the latter case. The former, well, I guess some are really masochistic in nature."

Confusion.

"Deposited good memories will earn interest. When you decide to withdraw them, you'll be earning more good ones. The same goes for depositing bad memories."

Wonder. Understanding.

"You could also loan good memories. Here 'memory' is not just about one's past but also everything that are bound to happen to one person. We could lend you good things that are to happen to you. But, you know what happens when one exhausts all his happy memories, right?"

You'll be left with bad ones - this the young man understood. After savoring everything good, the painful ones will just creep into your bed at night, enveloping you, suffocating you to death. Or to madness.

"Why would anyone choose to exhaust all his good memories? That's mad!"

"Simple: people are desperate." answered Roger. "Most are desperate for happiness, some for sadness. Yes, sadness. Remember how others, after break-ups and other heartbreaking events, choose to listen to depressing songs? That's basically the idea. Some don't really want to heal the wounds they've got. They want to suffer, and convince themselves that the world owes them good stuff."

The man couldn't look at Roger in the eye for this he also understood. He knew sorrow, desperation. In fact, he knew it too well - that's why he went there in the first place. He wanted to find solace by forgetting the divorce, his ex-wife's custody of their son - all the pain and suffering.

Unable to admit his defeat, the young man left quickly. Roger stared at the glass doors, watched the young man battle the heavy storm outside.

"Sir, you have a call from Mrs. Fuentes." said one woman in uniform.
"He'll be back." said Roger. "Persistentes recuerdos, la gente desesperada."*
"Sir?"
"Nothing. Send Mrs. Fuentes' line to my office."



*Persistent memories, desperate people.
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Memory Bank by KASH