The pseudo-fictitious heart and bizarre mind of an old soul who got fantasy mixed up with reality.
Sunday, September 5, 2010
Week 9
Sunday, August 29, 2010
Week 8
As a ship finds home in the harbor, I find refuge in the sea. The cerulean waters, forever harmonious with the sun breaking across the horizon, is the most perfect masterpiece any god could have created. The raging waves crashing, returning to tears as they reach the stony shore fills me with an unexplainable solace. A solace filled with sadness, yes, but peace nonetheless.
The north wind softly caresses my body and cleanses my soul as it takes me on that distant dream of myself and my father exploring the seven seas - a silent, distant memory I remember with piercing clarity. The seagulls squawking, trifling with the ships save me before a broken promise engulfs me completely; the out-of-tuned band reminding me of my existence... and my father's inexistence.
It's been two years since the sea took the S. Christina, and my father.
You may be wondering why, despite the crime it has committed, I have in me such ardent admiration for the sea. Too tell you the truth, I'm not sure myself. Perhaps it's because I love my father too much. How could I hate the one thing my father loved? Jealous, I may be, but furious I am most definitely not.
I still come here often, bringing my father's - no, our model ship. I sit here by the shore, staring past the horizon, smelling the salty sea water. The north wind blows and I welcome it wholeheartedly, knowing that somehow, it's my father wiping away the tears that escape my eyes.
Sunday, August 22, 2010
Week 7
Sunday, August 15, 2010
Week 6
Sunday, August 8, 2010
Week 5
Saturday, July 31, 2010
Week 4
Saturday, July 24, 2010
Week 3
Hector's every breath was a gust of despair, every blink a wave of remorse.
Sitting in his living room he can’t help but remember – and blame Laura for his miserable life.
Yes, it was all Laura's fault. Her amethyst eyes and glorious locks were culprits to a heinous crime - they made Hector fall in love.
Blue skies, a variety of flora in bloom – it was a lovely day in the spring of 1996 when they first met. Hector paid his mother a visit in the hospital and there was Laura: Dr. Laura Smith. With confidence he asked her to dinner; with a gracious smile, she refused.
That didn’t make Hector waver though. The following day, Dr. Laura Smith’s was surprised to find her office adorned with flowers, on her desk a teddy bear sat with “Press Me” on its tummy.
“Even if spring never withers, it still won't be able to compete with your radiant beauty,” it said when Laura pressed the little stuffed animal. “Will you join me for dinner?”
Hector came in holding a board that read “Please?” Amused, Dr. Smith accepted his invitation.
From friendly dates to movie dates to the first night they slept together - Hector fell more deeply in love with Laura that after a year of being together, he proposed to her. On the 26th of May, they vowed to love each other, a vow sealed with their ‘I do’s.’
Five years later, Hector sat in the living room where he and Laura used to plan their lives. Have children, have a day care – all of their plans were shattered the night Laura was shot dead by a lunatic who drowned himself by the river after committing the murder that crushed Hector's heart to pieces.
The day the faint tinge of Laura’s perfume that used to linger on her favorite chair faded, Hector broke down; it was like saying goodbye to her all over again. If only his great love for the woman would be gone as easily as how the waves leave the shore, he often thought.
If only.
Spring will never bloom for him again - and all he could do was count the tears the heavens shed on that overcast evening.