Sunday, September 5, 2010

Week 9

Like most girls, I grew up with once upon a time's and happily ever after's.

I hated evil stepmothers, fell in love with glass slippers and found fairies and dwarfs as comrades. I have dreamed of daring sword fights, witches and wizards casting magic spells, and singing teapots. I have discovered a whole new world inside a rabbit hole - a world where I can have tea with the most bizarre creatures to walk the world of dragons and magic. Riding a magic carpet, I flew and tumbled across the vastest seas and found a genie's lamp.

I wished for my prince charming: a prince of courage and love. He'd save me from my tower of grief and with a kiss, he'll wake me from my nightmares. He'd sweep me off my feet and on his white horse, we'll travel to his kingdom.

All these turned out to be fiction, though. Just fiction. Everything was meant for the books and not real life.

But I did find love.

It only turned out that what I needed was another princess.


This may be the real world but I have learned that it doesn't guarantee safety from the evil creatures of fiction. Many have opposed this love: trolls and giants who call our love immoral, evil queens who think they're all righteous and other monsters of the dark side.

I believe that our love is as true as the love that princes and princesses in books shared and fought for. Love has no rules, no exceptions; love knows no gender.

I am more than willing to slay the Jabberwocky if it meant the clock won't strike at midnight.



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My Prince is a Princess by KASH

Sunday, August 29, 2010

Week 8


As a ship finds home in the harbor, I find refuge in the sea. The cerulean waters, forever harmonious with the sun breaking across the horizon, is the most perfect masterpiece any god could have created. The raging waves crashing, returning to tears as they reach the stony shore fills me with an unexplainable solace. A solace filled with sadness, yes, but peace nonetheless.

The north wind softly caresses my body and cleanses my soul as it takes me on that distant dream of myself and my father exploring the seven seas - a silent, distant memory I remember with piercing clarity. The seagulls squawking, trifling with the ships save me before a broken promise engulfs me completely; the out-of-tuned band reminding me of my existence... and my father's inexistence.

It's been two years since the sea took the S. Christina, and my father.

You may be wondering why, despite the crime it has committed, I have in me such ardent admiration for the sea. Too tell you the truth, I'm not sure myself. Perhaps it's because I love my father too much. How could I hate the one thing my father loved? Jealous, I may be, but furious I am most definitely not.

I still come here often, bringing my father's - no, our model ship. I sit here by the shore, staring past the horizon, smelling the salty sea water. The north wind blows and I welcome it wholeheartedly, knowing that somehow, it's my father wiping away the tears that escape my eyes.




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Nautical Dreams by KASH

Sunday, August 22, 2010

Week 7

My beauty? Timeless.

I am the reason for the blonde and blue eyes phenomenon, why everyone would kill to have a vuluptous body like mine. I am perfection. I am the epitome of beauty and grace. A phenomenal woman.

In my world I can have all the clothes and shoes I want to wear, all the cars I can drive. For five decades I have been the plastic paramour of every male doll in this industry: Ken Carson, Blaine - you name them! How can they possibly resist my long lashes and pink lips?

I live in the perfect world.

And I am sick of all this perfection.

I am tired of being ageless. I want to grow wrinkles and have my grandchildren on my lap, have my man hold my hand while we watch the sunset from our porch.

I am tired of this smile plastered on my face. It prohibits me from crying my heartaches out, to be in despair of all the dreadful things happening to me - the things people are unaware of.

I am tired of all the glamor and adoration. A simple and peaceful country life is all I dream of. At times I want to hurt myself with my high-heeled shoes, leave a scar on my cheeks just so everyone will stop adoring me.

I am tired of being perfect. Of being Barbie Millicent Roberts.


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Being Barbie by KASH

Sunday, August 15, 2010

Week 6

I. Day


Welcome to the city.

Here the sky is not turquoise but a thin screen of gray smog. Within the walls of its monochromatic buildings and skyscrapers, people appear to be streaks of black and gray ink. The people in the sidewalk parade to their respective offices while others chase down yellow cabs.

The green Starbucks logo shouts to everyone to get their morning latte or ebony-black espresso. A mischievous white poodle, strangled with his leash, sprays the devil-red fire hydrant by the corner with his blessings.


II. Dusk

From grey pavements to an orange sunset kissed with a bashful pink.

A heavy midnight blue curtain is draped from the heavens, a mild purple caresses the horizon. In the evening the city is not the city. From a rusty black-and-white television set it transforms into Las Vegas. Every rose turns fuchsia, every tower is coated with brilliance.

The silent streets are filled with the cars' headlights and every building participates in the captivating display of lights that enamors the soul. The waters mirror the vibrant hues of the city, scaring away the phantoms of grief.

Everyone celebrates before the morning seeps back in, painting everything back to gray.





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Vibrant Hues: The City by KASH

Sunday, August 8, 2010

Week 5


"Come in. We're Open."

This sign greeted the young man at the entrance. Though still unsure, he decided to go in.

The bank was like any other bank: the glass doors, the bright fluorescent lights, the marble flooring. There were a lot of desks, stacks of papers sitting on each, and a far more lot of people falling in line. It was one of winter's coldest days that all of the heaters were turned on. Accenting the common-looking establishment was a vault of tremendous size occupying the far back, sitting cold and silently watching everyone's movement.

"Good afternoon, sir. How may I help you?" asked a man in a black suit; 'Roger Cruz' was embossed in the man's nameplate.
"Well I, uhm -. I'm not really sure."
"Would you like a tour, sir?"

Roger Cruz who turns out to be the bank's manager, escorted the young man further inside.

"What is this place?" asked the man.
"This is a Memory Bank. Well, when we use the word 'memory' we refer to everything that has happened and will happen to one person."

The man was dumbfounded. Bank, memories - they don't seem to fit. Before he could ask another question, Roger spoke.

"We operate the way ordinary banks do. You deposit, you withdraw, you loan et cetera. Instead of cash though, we only accept memories, sensations, emotions."

Dumbfounded still was the young man.

"You could deposit memories - be it good or bad. When you deposit good memories, you'll be left with only the bad ones; deposit the bad ones and be left with the good ones. We get a lot of the latter case. The former, well, I guess some are really masochistic in nature."

Confusion.

"Deposited good memories will earn interest. When you decide to withdraw them, you'll be earning more good ones. The same goes for depositing bad memories."

Wonder. Understanding.

"You could also loan good memories. Here 'memory' is not just about one's past but also everything that are bound to happen to one person. We could lend you good things that are to happen to you. But, you know what happens when one exhausts all his happy memories, right?"

You'll be left with bad ones - this the young man understood. After savoring everything good, the painful ones will just creep into your bed at night, enveloping you, suffocating you to death. Or to madness.

"Why would anyone choose to exhaust all his good memories? That's mad!"

"Simple: people are desperate." answered Roger. "Most are desperate for happiness, some for sadness. Yes, sadness. Remember how others, after break-ups and other heartbreaking events, choose to listen to depressing songs? That's basically the idea. Some don't really want to heal the wounds they've got. They want to suffer, and convince themselves that the world owes them good stuff."

The man couldn't look at Roger in the eye for this he also understood. He knew sorrow, desperation. In fact, he knew it too well - that's why he went there in the first place. He wanted to find solace by forgetting the divorce, his ex-wife's custody of their son - all the pain and suffering.

Unable to admit his defeat, the young man left quickly. Roger stared at the glass doors, watched the young man battle the heavy storm outside.

"Sir, you have a call from Mrs. Fuentes." said one woman in uniform.
"He'll be back." said Roger. "Persistentes recuerdos, la gente desesperada."*
"Sir?"
"Nothing. Send Mrs. Fuentes' line to my office."



*Persistent memories, desperate people.
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Memory Bank by KASH

Saturday, July 31, 2010

Week 4

Dear, sweet Kimberly,
Yes, your name would've been Kimberly. I would've been ecstatic the day mom would've given birth to you, to us. Though I wouldn't really be able to tell you or anyone else, I know you'll know I love you - we're twins anyway.

By the way, I'm your sister Katie.


Hey Little Sis,
Tomorrow's my first day to school. I have pencils and crayons and snacks in my bag. I'm excited but I'm also scared. What if there are bullies there? I saw some on TV and they could be really mean. Good thing there aren't any bullies there in heaven - Mom said. At least you're safe. Wish me luck!

PS: Did you get the letter I sent you? Mom said that if I tie my letter in a balloon and let it fly, it'll reach you in heaven. Send me a reply as soon as you get it, 'kay?


Dearest Kimmy,
It's our 8th birthday today! I really wish you were here, I wanted to celebrate with you. I miss you.

We'll come visit you after going to church. I'll light and blow 8 candles for you. Happy birthday!

Kim,
Ugh. Why did the zit god decide to play tricks on my face today? This is the worst day ever! Oh zits, go away! Prom's in a few days!


Oh Kimmy!
Billy asked me to prom, can you believe it? (Yes he did, despite my zits. Wasn't that sweet?) I have to be beautiful on prom night. Do you think I'll get my first kiss? I'm jumping around my room this minute! I wish you were here to help me choose a dress and a do. Plus, we could've even worn matching outfits!

My dearest sis,
After years of studying, I finally got my diploma! I'm sorry if I got you worried the time I wanted to drop out of school. I just want to let you know you're my inspiration. This one's for you.

My Kimberly,
I'm getting married. His name's Mike, I work with him in the office. Oh Kim, I'm so happy that I wanted to fly up there and hug you tight!

And give you the wedding invitation myself. I wanted you to be my maid-of -honor.

I terribly miss you.


Dear Sis,
Guess what? Mike and I are expecting a baby! I mean, BABIES! Yes, we're having twins! I'm filled with happiness Kim, but I'm also terrified.

Oh Kim, please pray for my safe pregnancy. I don't know if I'll survive if one of them dies.

To the little sister I never had,
Here I sit in your grave, the skies as clear as summer, writing yet another letter. I hope Kevin and little Kim's antics don't bother you much. Tell me though if they do; I'll lessen their TV time.


I love and miss you, sis. I hope you never forget that.





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To The Little Sister I Never Had by KASH

Saturday, July 24, 2010

Week 3


Hector's every breath was a gust of despair, every blink a wave of remorse.

Sitting in his living room he can’t help but remember – and blame Laura for his miserable life.

Yes, it was all Laura's fault. Her amethyst eyes and glorious locks were culprits to a heinous crime - they made Hector fall in love.


Blue skies, a variety of flora in bloom – it was a lovely day in the spring of 1996 when they first met. Hector paid his mother a visit in the hospital and there was Laura: Dr. Laura Smith. With confidence he asked her to dinner; with a gracious smile, she refused.

That didn’t make Hector waver though. The following day, Dr. Laura Smith’s was surprised to find her office adorned with flowers, on her desk a teddy bear sat with “Press Me” on its tummy.

“Even if spring never withers, it still won't be able to compete with your radiant beauty,” it said when Laura pressed the little stuffed animal. “Will you join me for dinner?”

Hector came in holding a board that read “Please?” Amused, Dr. Smith accepted his invitation.

From friendly dates to movie dates to the first night they slept together - Hector fell more deeply in love with Laura that after a year of being together, he proposed to her. On the 26th of May, they vowed to love each other, a vow sealed with their ‘I do’s.’


Five years later, Hector sat in the living room where he and Laura used to plan their lives. Have children, have a day care – all of their plans were shattered the night Laura was shot dead by a lunatic who drowned himself by the river after committing the murder that crushed Hector's heart to pieces.

The day the faint tinge of Laura’s perfume that used to linger on her favorite chair faded, Hector broke down; it was like saying goodbye to her all over again. If only his great love for the woman would be gone as easily as how the waves leave the shore, he often thought.

If only.

Spring will never bloom for him again - and all he could do was count the tears the heavens shed on that overcast evening.



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Missing Spring by KASH